When i met this girl at the train station...i really like i fell in love with her...enough said, love at first sight...
Our development in regards to relationship and feelings was on a high pace. 4 days on...i've had confess and the feed back im getting from her seems to be nothing short of mutual feelings ( i assume). However, i have no idea why i have such an urge every time to talk to her. i guess this is the first time i fell in love with a girl like deeply...
I'm a grown adult to understand these simple understanding in life that love is unpredictable. Bu i know for a fact that unpredictable is the very thing i would love to avoid. I dont mind to have an unpredictable relationship with her as in one day we might be your normal couple and the next being adventurous in what we are doing. But the thing is...the unpredictability comes from even before we are together. One day she is picking up your calls and the other she's not...
Hmm...i keep on telling myself that she has her own life...but it's was never my intention of 'suffocating' her or even attempt to do so. However, i was really worried.
IE. She went to karaoke with her friends. Told me she'll be back by 11pm and said will call me. So i went on doing my things and waited for her call til 11.30pm...called and nvr pick up or replied me. I understand the fact that she love to put her phone on silent...hmm...i have no idea what's going on in my mind now...worried...worried...worried...maybe i worry too much...she's not even my girlfriend to begin with,yet. But the temptation is always there. I come to a point in my life where i really am afraid to loss her even before i have her.
God, felt so useless...im like a piece of leave floating on the surface of the ocean...useless as the wave carries you to where ever it wants to. Sudden under current may pull u down, felt as if ur dying. Its like love, it takes you where ever it wants to. Hence, it too would drag u down and really bang u hard on the floor as i'm feeling now. Never had i felt so drown in love. She's special.
She's one of a kind for me. But im acting really immature and stupid. I have no idea. I know for a fact that im not like that. But the fact is, im insecure, nervous, and do not dare to be confident in any ways. It's now 12 past midnight...im still awake writing this...i kept my phone in silent too. The anticipation of the phone ringing is much more 'painful' than only having to once in awhile glance at the screen whether there's a test or a miss call...however, still in my mind, i know that there's no vibration from the phone. So, there's no text or call. Really...i felt useless once more...
Why am i feeling this way? Why cant i just forget bout her for awhile? My ex's were great but i never to the extend felt the way i felt today. A revelation. Maybe i had really found the girl i love. But deep inside me, even if i fail, i know it with all my heart that and in the future, not live to regret it...regrets is the sole reason keeping me awake at night in the pass besides late studies. But i find myself worst off starring at the phone at times. And now, trying not to look at the phone. Hoping suddenly i would see her text.
I'm pathetic....
But i know i love her and the only thing i would want is to be successful with her as the women beside me...
Pictures speaks a thousand word my friends....we are going to ROME!!!!Champions League FINAL!!!!^^
The 3-1 score is an understatement to United's dominance in the semi-final...it is open for the whole world to see how we rip arsenal apart at their own home...let us cheer for our boys!!!
